March 27, 2011: Insights

Hola, All! Several weeks ago when my sisters and I were finishing cleaning out my mom's house because we had a contract on the house, a random thought crossed my mind. It said something like 'after the house sells, my mom will pass away'. When I mentioned this to my sister, Carol, she didn't realize that I meant that my mom would know about it intuitively. Her response was, "Well, who's going to tell her?" Since I've tried to talk to Carol before about what I believe and didn't get very far, I just dropped the subject. Today I was talking to my sister, Lynne, about it and she said she had the very same thought last week after our cousin, Peggy, died. Even though Peggy was our cousin, she was the same age as my mom. Peggy's mom (who was my mom's sister) was 21, pregnant with Peggy when my mom was born. How would you like to be pregnant at the same time as your mother!! Yikes! Something else I shared with Lynne was the thought that I am going to get a windfall. This thought came into my mind last month, and randomly continues to appear. My feeling is that it will happen because my mom would have died. Again, Lynne said she just had the same thought last week. Interesting that 2 of us have had the same 2 random, or not so random, thoughts, isn't it? Right before lunch Carol texted me that mom had fallen twice and is being taken to Scott and White Hospital in Round Rock to see if anything was broken. Whether anything is or not, I think we will be moving her from the retirement center to an assisted living center where mom can get more care. With her memory problems and her mobility lessening, it's time to move on. I'm pretty sure that mom is ready to be done with this life, and I can't say as I blame her. Bad news, I just found out that mom has broken her other hip and is having surgery today. Will up-date you later. Insights can be wonderful but they can also be stressful, if I let them. One way to release stress is by walking outside, which I am going to do right now. Dawnie

March 25, 2011: Love wins!

Hola, All! Stress is a funny thing; it can manufacture itself in our bodies in so many ways. I know that I have a very low tolerance for stress, as evidenced by the thousands of migrains that I have had over the years. They started when I was in high school, and continued regularly until about 7 years ago. In order to keep my stress level as low as possible, and therefore avoid the big "M", I have had to let things go, to work to become detached from many situations that could cause migrains to explode in my head. But, I have not completely freed my life of stress, or migrains, yet. Right now, in my life, is alot of drama with people who are very close to me. Of course, there are two opposing sides, people who can't seem to accept another's point of view; some seem to think theirs is the only right answer. As I have tried to maintain balance in myself, I have not been successful. Last week I was the recepient of another migrain; I don't get them very often any more but when I do, I also end up losing everything in my stomach (if you know what I mean). But, because this situation has lingered, and no matter how hard I try to not think about it, it is still there, lurking beneath the surface of my mind.
On Monday, I woke up with a bad tooth ache. Now, I've had many tooth aches in my life; it's quite obvious with all the crowns in my mouth. But, this ache was different in that it would be bad for awhile, then go away. It started in the upper left molar and made its way to the lower left molars so that the pain was basically all over the left side of my mouth. But, because it would come and go as it pleased, I wasn't sure what was causing it. So, on Wednesday I went to the dentist to make sure I didn't have another cracked tooth, even though I had just had
x-rays 2 weeks ago. He confirmed that there was not a cracked tooth, or anthing else wrong that he could find. He said that when he sees this kind of thing in patients that it usually is a sign of stress. Well, since I already suspected that diagnosis, I was not surprised.
When I get up in the early mornings, I read from "A Course in Miracles", and then meditate on what I read. Today's lesson said to clear my mind and listen for the Word of God in quiet, because His Word can't be heard until my mind is quiet for awhile. So, I cleared my mind to just listen and then I heard, "Replace fear with Love". Awww, doesn't that make so much sense? The rest of the day, or days, I will surround this situation and the people in it in God's white light of Love until my mind is saturated with Love, and my aches and pains have accepted that they have no place in my body any more.
Thanks be to God's Love of all His children.
Dawnie

March 14, 2011: SOLD!

Hola, All! Great news! Last month my sister, Carol, told me that we were scheduled to close on my mom's house on March 21 at 10am. This was good news in that we had a buyer for her house, and bad news in that my daughter, Kim, and sweet grandson, Austin, would be visiting me at that time. I really wasn't excited at all at having to miss time being with them. So, I asked my angels and our Creator to change the date of the closing so that I could spend as much time as possible with my family. To some of you this may seem selfish, but the truth of the matter is that our angels and Creator want us to be happy and they will do what they can to accommodate us. Also, if we don't ask for what we want, how are we ever going to get what we want? So, I asked, and left it up to them to do what needed to be done. I even told my sister, Jeanne, what I had done. I'm don't think she had as much faith in the process as I did. Then, surprise, surprise, surprise, Carol calls me to say that the closing has been moved up 6 days and now we are going to sign the papers at 10am Tuesday, March 15! Of course, I knew that it would all work out! But along came a snag, in that the people who were supposed to survey the land didn't complete their job. But, I held on to my faith that the closing would take place before Kim and Austin get here on Wednesday. Today Carol called and told me that we are closing tomorrow at 4pm!! This is great news in that the house will finally be out of our hands and I get to spend two whole weeks with my sweeties!
THANK YOU GOD/ THANK YOU ANGELS!!
Ask For What You Want,
Dawnie

March 13, 2011: Vision

Hola, All! Thursday morning as I walked to the rec center I could see something out of the corner of my left eye, something that looked like part of an outline of something, but it was clear. I knew it had something to do with my eye, which is weird since I've always had really good vision. As I continued to walk, I noticed that everytime I looked to the left, the thing also moved to the left so that I never could look at it head-on. Not really giving it much more thought, I went about my day. On Friday morning, as I was taking a shower, I suddenly saw a streak of light to the left of me. Now that's weird, I thought. But then, I noticed that every time I looked sharply to the left, I saw streaks of light. I thought back to when I last had my eyes checked, knowing it wasn't that long ago........September, 2010. At that eye exam, I told the dr that I had been seeing these black floaty spots for a couple of months. They come and go, and I never know when they will show up again. He told me that if anything changes, to call him because something had happened to him, and it turned out to be a detached retina. The strange thing about having a detached retina is that you don't even know it has happened. So many people think that when something a little different happens with their vision, it isn't important and that it will go away with time. This is true sometimes, and sometimes it isn't. So, when these weird things started happening, I made an appt with my eye dr, Dr Gambino, for that day (Friday). He ran some tests, but didn't find anything. Then, he personally called to make an appt for me with a dr. who specializes in retinas, for that afternoon. On top of that, he told me that he wasn't going to charge me for my visit; he is the kindest man! As I was driving to the next dr's office, one thing that I thought of was something that I read that morning: God wants only happiness for me. I repeated that saying over and over and over, along with asking God and the angels to put me in the best drs care. At Dr. Coors office, drops were put in my eyes to dialate them so she could examine them more closely. She said what was happening is fairly common but to call immediately if I start to see the 'outline' and/or streak of light directly in front of me. According to the pamplet that she gave me, these odd occurances are because of changes in the jelly-like substance (vitreous) which fill the back cavity of the eye; these are things that can happen as one ages. I drove home relieved that it was nothing serious, and also thankful for divine help. And, I was thankful that Ed and I were still able to go dancing that night, because it allowed me to release some of the stress that I was feeling.
Any chance you get, dance!
Dawnie

March 11, 2011: Be the Peace

Hola, All! The song with the words 'be the peace you want to see' runs through my mind fairly often. Wednesday I had an 'opportunity' to put these words into practice. I usually walk to the rec center to work out around 6:50am, but this time I didn't leave until 7:10am. I also took a little bit of a different route, in that I went out the front door instead of the back. This makes my walk to the rec center a little longer. As soon as I walked out of the door, I asked the angels to protect me and surround me with their love. As I was walking west on Elizabeth Dr, I saw a blond woman, maybe in her late 20's walk out of a house wearing a short nightgown, a long white bathrobe, and nothing on her feet. I found it strange that she was barefoot because it was in the 40's, and I was bundled like a wooly bear. As I walked by her, she asked for my help, so I stopped to see what she wanted. She was holding a cell phone that didn't appear to be turned on. She said that her boyfriend was abusing her and she wanted to call 911. Just then the boyfriend, a nice-looking man in his early 30's, dressed for the day, walked out and just started droppping the f-bomb. She and I were on the sidewalk and he basically stayed near the house. He must have heard what she said about him because he loudly said that he never touched her, which I could see was true. I put my hand on her shoulder and looked into her eyes; she was clearly drunk or on drugs, which he also told me. I tried to let him know with my eyes that I didn't believe that he had hurt her, but I think he was really scared that she would call the cops and he would be arrested for something that he didn't do. All the time that he is talking, if that is what one calls it when one's vocabulary is limited to the f-bomb, I was calming talking to the woman in a low voice. She finally admitted that he had not hurt her, and then he left. I encouraged her to go back inside and I continued on my way. All this probably didn't take 3 minutes, but as calm as I was around them, I was shaking as I walked away. I was so thankful that the angels, God, the Holy Spirit, some being, was guiding me because I was so calm in the midst of this drama, and I didn't become a part of the drama. Even now as I write this, I am getting a little shaky reliving it. But, it showed me that I could be the peace that I want to see in this world.
Be the peace that you want to see,
Dawnie

March 10, 2011: More on Austin

Hola, All! Today Kim took baby Austin to a pediatric allergist (please see previous blog). Since he has several drugs in his system, he could not be tested for certain allergies the conventional way of pricking the skin on his back. She had to take him to the hospital where they drew blood out of his arm. They will test it for allergies to dairy, nuts, shellfish, soy, wheat and something else. Thankfully, the allergist told Kim that she could feed Austin the breastmilk in the freezer; that's a relief since it's packed in there! And, my freezer has at least 16 bags from when Kim was here in December. He gave her some formula that she can try to give to the baby but warned her that it wasn't very tasty. Knowing Austin, he isn't about to drink something that tastes nasty. We will find out in the next couple of weeks what the little booger can or can't eat. I think this should also help his excema also. Kim's been dealing with that almost since he was born. I guess we didn't think of it before but these problems abound in my family, but just not to the degree that Austin has them. For one thing, Ed can generally eat or drink anything, and not be bothered. But, he can't use anti-persperant. Since I've been buying his deodorant for years, I think he forgot a couple of years ago when he bought 3 sticks of deodorant/anti-persperant. When he used it the next day, he broke out all the way from his armpit to almost his waist! Also, there's been certain detergents that have caused him to break out. On the other hand, I started having problems with dairy when I was in my 30's. Kerri and Kim started having problems in their late teens, and Brandy was born with an allergy to milk. It seems as if all these problems have been multiplied in Austin. But, I'm thankful that soon we are going to find out what he can and can not have.
Be thankful every day of your life for something,
Dawnie

March 9, 2011: Austin

Hola, All! Yesterday Kim called me about 5:30pm to say that she and baby Austin were headed to the emergency room! Kim had taken Austin to John's work to eat lunch with John, a 45 minute drive on a good day. When they got home after 3pm, she decided to feed him formula, which he's never had; she had not pumped yet and didn't have any breastmilk for him. After feeding him about 2 oz, he started making a really weird noise, like he had something in his throat. He was gagging, crying really weird, and throwing up mucus! She stopped feeding him, and made a bottle of breatmilk (her freezer is full of bags of breastmilk) but he wouldn't drink it. She tried to use the aspirator in his throat but she couldn't get anything out. Then she notices that he is covered in hives, and he is as red as a tomato! Panic sets in! Kim calls her neighbor, Olivia (in school to become a pediatric nurse) who tells her that Austin has had an allergic reaction. It's after 4:30pm when she calls her doctor who told her to take the baby to the emergency room. At the ER the triage nurse tells her that Austin is having anaphylaxis; they give him epipen, benadryl and steroids! And, the nurse says that alot of times when a person has an allergic reaction to something, they have another one in 6-8 hours. The dr hooks the baby up to all kinds of machines, checking his breathing, bp, etc. After 10 minutes his skin color started returning to a more normal color, and he was breathing easier. By the time John made it to the ER, Austin was 80% better. Since John rides the train home, and Kim had the car, it took him awhile to get to the hospital. The baby was not released until 9:30pm, when they thankfully took him home. He is fine now but Kim was given a long list of things that she and the baby can't eat. This is going to change her life more than it changes Austin's life, I think. I am proud of Kim for listening to her gut and taking him to the ER, even though a couple of her neighbors thought Austin was out of danger and didn't need to go. Tomorrow they have an appointment with a pediatric allergist; maybe we can get to the bottom of what he can eat/drink and what he can't.
Praying for Kim and Austin,
Dawnie